Hello!

I am typing to you with my left hand. I decided to write while I have a little bit of energy.

I came home on Christmas. They tried to send me home on Christmas Eve but I said no way. I was in too much pain. I was still getting Morphine from an IV and pushing the button to get more Morphine almost every ten minutes. I was very glad I stayed one more day.

Nothing has really sunk in yet. People keep telling me how wonderful it is about my lymph nodes and I believe them but like I said, It hasn't sunk in yet. My awake time which is only a few hours a day is focused on not throwing up and getting the pain under control so I haven't been able to process the good news. I figured that it took me over a month to cry in the first place about having cancer that it might take me a while to deal with this. Plus I am so out of it from the Vicodin. We think the nausea is either from the pain and/or the vicodin and having it on an empty stomach. I am eating but not a whole lot yet. When I do eat I crave saltine crackers or chocolate shakes.

I am kind of thankful that I only have a limited view of my reconstructed breast. When I look down I see a lump for a breast which is more than I expected so that pleases me. I can not see my scars when I look down which I am ok with. All the doctors and nurses say that it looks great so I will trust them on that. I am not ready to look at the scar yet.

I am recovering quickly. As of yesterday I have been able to get out of bed by myself. For some reason the pain is more tolerable when I have a pillow under my arm. I still need help with that.

Thanks again for all of your love and support. It has been amazing and so helpful!

Judy